You were in the storage room of the head quarters with Hanji assisting you in hunting for the supplies you were going to get. The whole time you could feel your face flush in crimson as you were too shy to admit your feelings for him.
"Hey, '______________'?" His voice called you out which made you jump a bit from surprise.
"Yeah...?" You responded quietly with your body twitching as you turned to his direction.
"Do you think we should use these?" There he stood with some old things of rope he had used on Sawyer and Bean.
You just shook your head in disapproval with your body turning back frantically to your pile of supplies.
"Just tell him you wimp!!" Your mind was trying to push you forward, but your well being was continuing to refuse.
The longer you waited, the more it made you anxious. You took in a deep breath before walking over towards him with stiff movement and puffed out cheeks. Your hand grabbed onto his shoulder and he turned around. His eyes widened a bit to see your strange appearance, but then the corner of his lips started to turn into a bright smile.
"I get it!" He spoke cheerfully and your eyes had a baffled look in them.
"G-Get what?" You were uneasy as you figured he understand what was happening.
"You're wanting to do everything, but you're too afraid that you'll make a mistake in front of me."
You could feel the inside of your head slowly implode on itself as your hands let go of his shoulder and you held the jittery smile on your lips. Your eye began to twitch a bit with Hanji's expression starting to turn unsteady.
"'_____-_________'..?" His hand reached out to you and then started to wave in your face.
You began to breathe in through your nose and let it out from your mouth as you weren't sure what to say at this point.
"Just forget it..." You turned away quickly and continued to browse through the materials.
This time he placed one hand on your shoulder and kept you in place.
"You might as well tell me now since you got me involved." The dim light reflected in his glasses and your eyes shifted over towards his direction.
Another deep sigh left your lips before you turned yourself around. You felt your body shiver a bit as you were about to confess to Hanji.
"Look...I'm not sure how else to put it, but I really like you, Hanji-san. I was always too afraid to say something since you were so absorbed in your research and figured having time for a relationship with you would have seemed ridiculous to you." You started to let the words flow out themselves as you gave him your little speech.
Dead silence took up the room as it became relevant to his unsure reactions. There weren't any words exchanged between you; only a strong embrace was that initial reaction he gave to you. You stood there in his strong grasp and his breathing slowed down a bit. One hand was placed on the back of your head and gripped tightly onto your hair. The other hand was wrapped around your waist to keep you secured to him. Your arms slowly wrapped around the back of his neck with a faint ink blush across your cheeks. Your eyes shifted towards his head as it started to burrow itself in your shoulder.
"Hanji? Do you feel the same way?" You spoke up quietly as you felt his grip tense up.
"Did you really think I wouldn't put you before my research?" He questioned nonchalantly which made you jump a bit.
"I'll be honest; I really thought you wouldn't. Even when we were younger you would be so lost in your research that it was hard for me to say anything about this. Being the wild person you are, it would seem silly to hold you down like that. It doesn't mean I still don't like you for that." You smiled to yourself as your head leaned to the side to touch his.
"I still care for humanity too, '______________'. It's not just about the Titans. I just want to understand how they live from their perspective. Somethings are overlooked anymore and I want to go in depth to that." He began to explain himself a bit more and you just continued to stand in his firm embrace. "That doesn't mean I wouldn't care about you either..."
The two of you were locked into one another's grasps without moving a muscle.
"So then, do you accept my confession..?" You broke the calm silence and lifted himself off of your shoulder and you moved your head.
His face was in front of your with the goofy looking smile on his face as he nodded slowly. You just smiled back and pulled him into your embrace once more.
"Hanji!! '_______________' It's an emergency!!!" You heard one of the others from the Levi Squad interrupt you and you both let go of one another.
You turned your heads to one another before running out of the storage room and following the Squad member. The three of you rushed outside and saw something out of the ordinary. There was Eren who appeared to be sitting on the shoulder blades of a Titan's shoulder. It wasn't a full grown Titan though. It showed to have muscle on its right side while the skeletal remains of the rib cage was protruding from the left side. The only part of the torso that was in the ground was only the upper half of the chest as well as the arm. There was Levi with his bland face as usual standing in front of Eren.
"What the Hell happened?" You tried to walk closer, but Levi held his blade towards you.
His eyes narrowed down to warn you to stay back. You took a few steps back and looked towards Hanji for a split second. You swear you could see drool coming out of his mouth as the excitement gradually poured from his expression.
"EREN!!!!" He shouted loudly before rushing past Levi to get a closer look. "Won't you please let me touch the arm?!"
"I-I don't think that's a good idea!!" Eren was frantic as his right hand was attached to where the neck of the Titan would be.
"Just one touch; I'M BEGGING YOU!!" Hanji had a crazed look in his eyes as he inched forward with his hands out in front of him.
"Hanji-san!!" The young male was frantic as Hanji gradually put his hands on the muscular right arm.
You watched in horror as steam eroded from the tense muscle to his hands.
"OW!!!!" Hanji panicked as he tore away and slid out onto the ground. "Son of a b*tch that was hot!!!!" He held out his hands in front of them and saw them blister red.
You went over towards Hanji and held his hands in yours.
"Let's go run your hands under some water..." You tried to suggest this to him, but he immediately stood up and directed his attention back to Eren.
You felt yourself become discouraged after all those things you had told him. The way he worded his words did make it sound like you were still going to have his attention, but from the looks of it, that may not be all true. You decided to take it upon yourself to go back into head quarters to get him a wet towel so his hands wouldn't blister further. Levi was the only noticed you departing back into the castle with slow movements. With Hanji's attention set straightly on Eren, he walked a bit closer to Eren with his eyes still narrowed down.
"Take your hand out, Jaeger." He commanded and saw Hanji's expression drop.
"NO!! HE CAN'T!! I haven't had proper time to examine it!!" Hanji held his very panicked look.
"Do it now!" Levi was serious as he gave Eren another command.
As Eren struggled to take his hand out, Hanji's panicking became worse by the second as Eren was trying desperately to take his hand out of the strange Titan body. Levi used this as an opportunity and carefully left the scene. He could hear Eren fall to the ground as he managed to get his hand free with the older male screaming as he saw the body begin to evaporate.
"NOOO!!" Hanji shouted several times as his hands were on each side of his head.
You stood over the water faucet inside the castle with your eyes starting to tear up. You had to wipe your arm over your eyes a few times to keep them back, but it became a useless task. Soon you felt yourself crying silently to yourself as you let the towel soak up the water. Faint sniffles from your nose kept going as you stood there.
"What kind of soldier are you?" Levi spoke up from behind you and you kept your eyes focused on the flowing water.
You were ashamed to show him this disgraceful appearance that you had on your face. He walked behind you until his short stature towered over you.
"You told him, didn't you?" His voice was nonchalant as usual and you nodded your head.
"I did...he acted like he accepted it...but then again, I don't think so..." You kept your voice from stuttering since you were crying a little bit.
He stood behind you in complete silence and you could feel yourself tense up a bit.
"I still don't understand what you see in that pig anyways. His fascinations creep me out." Levi finally spoke up and you could feel your eyebrows furrow down a bit.
"You're the one who creeps me out, Heichou. I've seen the way you talk to Titans when you're slaying them all over the place. I swear sometimes you're a real sadistic person..." You started to admit these things to him and it made him a bit irritated.
Levi had no hesitation in grabbing the top of your head by your hair and pulling your head up. You had one eye shut as the force on your head started to sting a bit.
"We're not here to talk about my possible sadistic traits, '_______________'. I'm more invested in what that pig had to say to you." A dark shadow covered parts of his eyes and made his pupils stand out.
You managed to grab onto his wrist and pull it out of your hair while getting his sleeve wet. You heard him click his tongue to his teeth as he took the handkerchief from his his shirt and began to soak up the water off of his uniform. You stood up with the drenched towel and turned off the water faucet to conserve the rest of the fresh water.
"All I'll tell you is that he said he still cares for humanity even if the Titans are his main priority at the moment." You clenched the towel and the water began to scatter around your boots.
You became fed up with the commanders attitude and departed from the room with his eyes following your every movement. Your breathing became heavy as you approached the back doorway to the outside courtyard. You pushed open the door gently and saw Hanji and Eren sitting together at the table with Hanji holding onto the younger male's arm. You carefully made your way to the table ensuring that you wouldn't disturb Hanji.
"Hanji-san...I brought you a towel for your hands..." You spoke softly behind him and he turned around.
His glasses were pushed up to the top of his head and you could see his vision trying to focus in on you.
"Thanks. The blistering has gotten worse so this will help it." He admitted as he let go of Eren's arm to grab onto the towel.
You could feel your lips cringe at the sight of his burnt hands as soon as he began to wipe them down with the cold water. You saw his face flush with relief as the frigid liquid soothed the pain on his hands.
"'______________', you're probably mad at me, aren't you?" Hanji had a sweet smile on his face as he looked down at his hands.
You jumped a bit as it became obvious from your tone and expression that he caught on how you feel.
"I see where you're coming from, but this is something none of us have seen before. Of course my attention will be going to him." Soon his voice became serious as he finally looked up at you.
His eyes widened a bit as he saw the water starting to pour from the corners of your eyes. You immediately latched yourself onto him with the wet towel pressed against your shirt.
"It just reminded me last time you did something like that..." Your voice went a bit hoarse as more tears started to pour out.
"You don't have to remind me." Hanji's eyes rolled a bit as he looked at Eren.
The young boy just smiled slightly seeing you with Hanji.
"Is it alright if I asked what happened, Hanji-san?" You heard Eren speak up and lifted yourself off of him.
You got off of Hanji and sat next to him on the table seat. One of his blistered hands grabbed onto the top of yours and clutched it tightly.
"They day I lost Sawyer and Bean is a day that still haunts me. I remember seeing their remains beginning to disintegrate before my eyes. All of the steam filled the testing area and I felt like it was all a dream. I made myself go up to the bodies to make sure they really weren't gone, but I ended giving myself burns all over the left side of my body. My condition was pretty bad so I was put on rest for a while."
"It was probably one of the worst things I've seen in a long time. Besides from the other time I had to save you before you got smashed to pieces." You teased him as your other hand gave him a tiny punch in the arm.
"Hey that one wasn't all that bad! I at least got it to look at me!" Hanji protested quickly and you just smiled.
"He looked at you because he was hungry." You punched him again with another wide smile on your lips.
"Besides this, it seems that you were able to trigger your ability somehow!" Hanji went back onto the subject and you smiled at him and then at Eren.
"I'm still not sure how it happened this time. Heichou had brought me something to eat while I waiting since I hadn't eaten since this morning, but when I went to pick up the spoon, everything just happened so fast and I transformed..." Eren brought this up and your eyes gave Hanji a concerned look.
"It would be troublesome if this transformation became happened to you subconsciously. With that in mind, you need to be prepared to be parted off to the Military Police if that is the case of your transformation. The ruling of the Survey Corps can change within in an instance given the reports." Hanji brought this up and it frightened Eren a bit.
"We'll make sure that doesn't happen to you." You tried to reassure him with this fact and his head nodded slowly.
"By the way...did everything go alright, '_____________'-san?" His familiar curiosity returned and you looked at Hanji with a smile.
"You could say that. It took a while, but I feel better now that he knows." You set your head on his shoulder while his hand placed itself on your shoulder. "You'll probably know what I'll ask you, Jaegar~." You smiled a bit as you teased him once again.
He just put his hand behind his head with his eyes looking down at the table.
"Hm? Ask him what?" Hanji was very lost as he looked at the two of you.
"When I was having trouble about confessing to you, he was helping me by telling me he had a little crush on someone. I listed a few people off, but I asked him if he had a thing for Heichou." You smirked a bit and his whole face went crimson just like before.
"AH?! Jaeger, do you feel that way?!?" Hanji was very shocked as he stood up and slammed his bad hand against the table and completely ignored the pain.
"Not again...." Eren complained as his hands covered his embarrassed face.
"I have no intentions of being with that shitty brat, '______l/n______'." Levi was right behind you and you shuttered a bit.
"Oh come on Heichou. You can't tell me that you don't have a little bit of attachment towards him." You stood up from your side of the table and pulled Eren's cheeks into a smile.
"This isn't the time to act like children." He completely avoided the question as his eyes narrowed down further. "I need all hands on desk to help clean the castle."
"Again..? Didn't we just-"
"We'll get right on it, Heichou!" You covered Eren's mouth and he just left the three of you.
A sigh of relief escaped your lips as you uncovered the young male's mouth.
"Eren, I would have thought by now you would have known about Levi." Hanji stood up from the bench and began to mess around with his burned hands.
"Known what exactly?"
You and Hanji gave him a death glare and he shivered a bit.
"Heichou is an extremely OCD person about keeping things clean. You'll see how much we have to clean as long as he's with us." You just patted his back and stood by Hanji. "Come on. I know we just did it a few days ago, but we better get to it."
Eren followed behind obediently as you and Hanji lead him. He looked down and saw your hands were connected, but very softly so that you wouldn't bring more pain to his hand.
"I got it!!" You suddenly shouted and turned your head back towards Eren. "If you really want Heichou, you should dress up as a maid and-"
"I don't love Heichou!!!" His face was completely flustered.
You just held up a victory sign as your teasing was getting the best of him.
"'_______________', are you ready for the expedition next month? Not to mention the new recruits coming in." Hanji whispered to you and you had to think about this for a moment.
"I'm not really sure what this one will be about. If it's like the others, we'll just be in the forest again to do some more field work and killing."
"Do you think by then Eren will figure it out?"
"I sure hope so. With his determination, it won't take him long to find a way." You looked at him for a second and smiled.
"Tomorrow we'll start the real research." He gave you a confident look and you nodded your head.